Archive for December, 2008

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Posted in Random on December 29, 2008 by Poh Ching

Sigh. I feel like I’m falling back into sleep after a nightmare. You know, waking up from a nightmare, then realising that it is JUST a nightmare, you then go back to sleep without any further ill consequences? Yup, that’s how I’m feeling right now.
I fell back into a relationship with somebody cute and adorable and pouty who keeps yawning and rubbing his eyes during a shopping trip.
Like spinning in a circle on the same spot and falling in a heap onto the ground. Or in my case, falling into someone’s warm warm arms. Sigh. I love to hold his hand even though it makes mine sweaty, kiss his cheek even if he didn’t wash it, interlock my arms in one of his, hold his waist so he can’t run :P He’s mine, all mine…….!!!!!!! :P

Muahahahahah.

I’m still here

Posted in Random with tags , , on December 25, 2008 by Poh Ching

Before I let myself tear up and bemoan the fact that period is a part of life every month, I thought I’d distract myself my looking for delicious pictures of the dream-ilicious Edward Cullen i.e. Robert Pattinson. Yummy.

The pain….

Posted in Emo-ing, Random with tags , , on December 25, 2008 by Poh Ching

Ouch. It really hurts. What dies? Period cramps no less. It isn’t unbearable now, but still very very very uncomfortable with lots of tiny pains. My temper has already got out of control. Argh. I hate this time of the month. I feel like lying down, chilling and killing people right now. Food looks plain to me – my appetite is totally gone. If you put a turkey in front of me right now I’ll tell you to stuff it up your…… I mean throw it to the dogs.

I feel like crying and snapping at people at the same time. I feel like talking and shutting up at the same time. I feel like watching TV and switching it off at the same time.

16/12/2008: The Happiest Event in 2008

Posted in Emo-ing, Private on December 17, 2008 by Poh Ching

FINALLY! I’ve done it and never felt better in my short 20 years!

I’ve finally broke up with the boy of my Dreams (or so I thought :P ) and I feel liberated. I could go on and on, but its time for me to sleep and so, I shall take the shortcut and instead copy and paste relevent lyrics. Songs arranged chronically following the evolution of the past til today.

Untouched

I go ooh ooh, you go ah ah
lalalalalalalala

lalalalalalalala
I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want
Don’t stop
Give me give me give me what you got got
Cause I can’t wait wait wait any more more more more
Don’t even talk about the consequence
Cause right now you’re the only thing that’s making any sense to me
And I don’t give a damn what they say, what they think think
Cause you’re the only one who’s on my mind
I’ll never ever let you leave me
I’ll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye
(bye bye bye)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much

That I just can’t resist you
It’s not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can’t forget you
I’ve gone crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched
And I need you so much

See you, breathe you, I want to be you
Alalalala alalalala
You can take take take take take time time
To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life
Give me give me give me all of you you
Don’t be scared
I’ll see you through the loneliness of one more more more
Don’t even think about what’s right or wrong, wrong or right
‘Cause in the end it’s only you and me and no one else is gonna be around
To answer all the questions left behind
And you and I are meant to be so even if the world falls down today
You’ve still got me to hold you up up
And I will never let you down (down)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can’t resist you
It’s not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can’t forget you
I’ve gone crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched
Alalalala alalalala
Untouched
Alalalala alalalala

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can’t resist you
It’s not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can’t forget you
I’ve gone crazy from the moment I met you

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can’t resist you
It’s not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can’t forget you
I’ve gone crazy from the moment I met you

I Can’t Stay Away

This is wrong
I should be gone
Yet here we lay
‘Cause I can’t stay away

Roses bloom
In your dirty room
I come to play
‘Cause I can’t stay away
No I can’t stay away-ay

I’m conflicted
I inhale now I’m addicted
To this place
To you babe
I can’t stay away
Can’t stay away
We get up, we go down
Then we go one more round
It’s wrong, they say
I can’t stay a- I can’t stay away
No I can’t stay a- I can’t stay away

I was numb
For you I come
Night and day
And I can’t stay away
No I can’t stay away

I’m conflicted
I inhale now I’m addicted
To this place
To you babe
I can’t stay away
Can’t stay away
We get up, we go down
Then we go one more round
It’s wrong, they say
I can’t stay a- I can’t stay away
No I can’t stay a- I can’t stay away

I wish I could
Leave and never return
Baby, I know I should
But for you I’d burn

Stay away
‘Cause I can’t stay away-ay

I’m conflicted
I inhale now I’m addicted
To this place
To you babe
I can’t stay away
Can’t stay away
We get up, we go down
Then we go one more round
It’s wrong, they say
I can’t stay a- I can’t stay away
No I can’t stay a- I can’t stay away

I can’t stay away
I can’t stay away
I can’t stay away
I can’t stay away

Cry

All my life you’ve had an opinion
Doing things for the wrong reasons
Well not today

Don’t you know I think for myself
I get on fine without anybody’s help
Don’t care what you say

I’m breaking your heart (but I’m breaking apart)
All you do is hold me down (hold me down)
Try to make me someone I don’t know
I’m not the girl you’d thought you found

What would you do if I told you
You can’t control my life
What would you say
If I left today with no regrets and no goodbye
What would you do if I told you
There is no more you and I
What would you say if I walked away and left you there to cry

I don’t know what’s coming over you
Or how we fell apart
I tried so hard but I don’t believe in you
You’re not the guy I thought I knew

What would you do if I told you
You can’t control my life
And what would you say
If I left today with no regrets and no goodbye
What would you do if I told you
There is no more you and I

What would you say if I walked away and left you there to cry

What would you say if I said to you just go ahead and cry


Everything I’m Not

Oh no
Don’t go changing
That’s what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That’s when it all just fell apart

Like you’re so perfect
And I can’t measure up
Well I’m not perfect
Just all messed up


I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don’t wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she’s everything
Everything I’m not

It’s not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don’t worry you’ll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You’re all messed up

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don’t wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she’s everything
Everything I’m not

Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had

Hey don’t you get it
I’m not going anywhere with you tonight

Cause this is my life

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don’t wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she’s everything
Everything I’m not

But now I see
I don’t wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she’s everything
Everything I’m not

This Is How It Feels

You keep calling my phone non-stop
Don’t you know I won’t pick it up
You never leave a message
Look how you’ve changed

You got nothing to say, gettin’ in the way
Show up at my house
Your gettin’ so obsessive
Like I have time for you

Wasn’t it me you didn’t want?
Wasn’t it me who was hanging on?
Now I’m done but before I go I want you to know …

This is how it feels
When you wait for a call that never comes
Are you waking up ’cause you miss someone?
This is how it feels
When the trust you had is broken,
And your left to burn with your heart wide open

Oh Oh

You wanted me, not to tell me why
Why and how you had the heart to f**k up my whole life
That’s just so you

And now I’ve moved on by myself
And maybe I won’t forgive
I’ll just forget you lived
And I hope it hurts

Wasn’t it me you tried to blame?
Wasn’t it me you threw away?

But before you go there’s something you should know …

This is how it feels
When you wait for a call that never comes
Are you waking up ’cause you miss someone?
This is how it feels (oh oh)
When the trust you had is broken,
And your left to burn with your heart wide open

You taught me how to hate you
And I was so in love
When I tried to save us it was not enough
So what the hell is different
’cause now that I am gone
You’re crawling back to tell me
I’m the one

Oh Oh
This is how it feels
Oh Oh
This is how it feels

When you wait for a call that never comes
Are you waking up ’cause you miss someone?
This is how it feels (oh oh oh, oh oh oh)
When the trust you had is broken,
And your left to burn with your heart wide open

Do you only want me
’cause you can’t have me?
Do you only want me
’cause I’m gone?
Do you only want me
’cause you can’t have me?
Do you only want me
’cause I’m gone?
Do you only want me
’cause you can’t have me?
Do you only want me
’cause I’m gone?
Do you only want me
’cause you can’t have me?
Do you only want me
’cause I’m gone?

Oh Oh

In Another Life

I have known you my whole life
When you were ten, you said you’d make me your wife
Eight years later you won me over
Just as I took the world on my shoulders

I got used to living without you
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you
Always said that you were my man to be
But I guess I was in love with your memory

You know I love you, I really do
But I can’t fight anymore for you
A
nd I don’t know, maybe we’ll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life

I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were

I’m sorry I can’t be your world

You know I love you, I really do
But I can’t fight anymore for you
And I don’t know, maybe we’ll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life (another life)

The way you’re holding on to me
Makes me feel like I can’t breathe
Just let me go, just let me go
It just won’t feel right inside
God knows I’ve tried

You know I love you, you know I do
But I can’t fight anymore for you
And I don’t know, maybe we’ll be together again
Sometime, in another life

In another life, in another life

All by The Veronicas(pic below) – specially dedicated to the one-time Love of my Life. You know who you are.

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